After Sleeping with My Childhood Prince, I Kicked Him Out from My World

62. Wrong expectations

<<. Miles. >>

"It's nothing... We aren't supposed to mingle with each other. Now that we have cleared this up. I should leave..."

Her words echo in my head.

I don't get it.

It's risky. I have decided to pressurize her, anyway. I want to know what's in her pretty head. But she isn't ready to

talk.

I never gave a fuck about any girls before. Especially if they play hard to get. I despise and push them out of my life in no time.

But with Avery... I cannot. Also I know her words are out of frustration.

it about the game at Dom's club? When I left abruptly. Technically, we never discussed why I left. Not that I can tell her the real reason when Liam is involved. It's a sensitive topic. I never saw Liam that vulnerable before.

"I am not your sub, M," she says finally. And a hope flares in my heart.

Now finally she has given me something. When I ordered her to stay, I was expecting her to walk out. But her reply. What does it mean?

Does she want me to collar her? Does she want a bonded relationship or something more?

"Do you want to be?" I ask her to understand.

"I am not sure."

I smother a smile. Being 'not sure' is better than an absolute no.

I wait for her to say something, but she refuses to make eye contact.

"Look at me."

She glances at me through her eyelashes at first, then finally meets my gaze. I cannot help but notice her beautiful eyes. Deep Collins, like melted chocolate, sparkling in the light. Her long, dark lashes framed them perfectly, making them stand out.

When was the last time I admired someone's eyes?

I have always been shallow to women. Today I want to make a difference.

"Do not avoid eye contact with me. I don't like that. And I hate it when you avoid talking."

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I take a pause as she looks at me though those vulnerable eyes.

"I am not into talking... I am rather into fucking and move on.. But today I am trying to make an effort, Avery. So I want you to take a step towards me. Can you do that?"

She swallows hard and nods. "I- I think I would like that..."

I blow out a breath of relief. After a long time, I am unsure how I am supposed to proceed. This sensation is novel. Being afraid that I might fuck it up or she might shut me out again.

For the first time I want to try something new.

It could be the beginning of something special. Something that I have been avoiding my whole life. I am a little anxious. If this night works out, I would like to know where it takes us.

"I always felt it was one sided?" she states, gathering courage. "Is it?"

I feel a twist in my stomach. I have been so lost with my dilemma, I never realized how I made her feel. Ever since that night in hotel, when she stumbled into my room naked, I have labeled it one thing or another.

I open my mouth to answer, but the server's cheerful voice interrupts us.

"Fucking hell," I mutter under my breath.

"Here is your food!" The server says, putting a plate with sushi rolls with crispy coating onto the table.

"Here you are, Sir.... A 12-ounce ribeye steak, cooked to medium-rare perfection. Enjoy," the waiter says with a smile as he places a small dish of butter

and a sprinkle of herbs on the side of her plate.

The server leaves, and Avery's eyes flicker to my plate.

Interesting...

"Come here," I tell her, as I slide my chair back and gesture her to sit on my lap.

"Excuse me?"

Her eyes widen and she looks around frantically. The Restaurant is not exactly empty. So I understand her turmoil.

Wouldn't it be nice of her to push her limits?noveldrama

I have never owned a sub before but public exhibition is the thing I would like to try with her.

"I don't like to repeat myself," I tell her in a calm voice. "I think your trainers are not doing a good job at the barn."

My jaw ticks, imagining. Are they fucking her? I know I have no right, but I don't like it.

"I will take over your training to make sure you learn to pay attention to your Dom."

Her pupils dilate and lips part. She doesn't object. Heat rushes to my cock, thinking about ways I could make her

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After Sleaning with

compliant.

This is embarrassing," she says as she makes her way to my chair.

I widen my legs as she slips into my lap with one hand around my neck.

This is not even the beginning of embarrassing," I tell her smugly. "If I ask you to

go under the table and suck my cock. Yea... That could be considered-"

"Miles!" she whisper-shouts at me while nervously looking around. I can see a blush creeping onto her cheeks.

I chuckle.

Honestly, I literally have blue balls. I couldn't masturbate with a good release after returning from the resort. Avery was always on my mind.

But this is not the time. We need to talk.

"Seriously! People nowadays don't know time or place," someone exclaims

behind us. Avery's shoulders hunches with shame.

I draw circles at her back. "Look at me... Ignore them. I want your complete attention."

She nods and I place a kiss on her neck as I try to process what I want to tell her. "There are things we need to talk about.."

I take the knife and she holds the fork as I cut the steak.

"First thing I want to confess is... that I am not into relationships, Avery."

She stiffens and I hold her tighter. She needs to know the truth. I have misled her long enough. I don't want to set wrong expectations. Not anymore.

"Then why am I sitting in your lap, Miles?" she asks resentfully. "Why this display of affection?"

"Let me complete," I say as I take the fork from her hand to feed her the steak. She looks at me, perplexed, but opens her mouth to take the bite. "To answer your question... It's not one sided. But I hadn't realized it before."

Both Liam and Noah pointed it out many times when I was going to extra lengths for her. Yes, I feel strongly about her. But it doesn't make me any less anxious.

"There are things you need to know about me and my family...I am not comfortable about it."

I can't even imagine how the

conversation with Isha will go. With Isha hate us when she figures out she has lived a fatherless life with so

much hardship. Probably yes.

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After Sleeping with Mocka

One problem at a time. I remind myself and continue.

"Maybe slowly I will share," I say, as I continue drawing circles on her back.

"There is a reason that relationships

scare me."

She meets my eyes, tears threatening to fall.

I rub her back then add, "For the first time I want to bend over my back for

someone... To figure out how it works."

Will she accept this?

I can't give her a full commitment. Not unless I know if I am even capable of a

serious relationship. What if I hurt her just like dad hurt mom?

I can certainly control my dick. But apart from cheating, there are other things too.

I don't even know the ABC of a relationship.

"Are you okay with that?" I ask as my heart hammers behind my ribs. nods.

She clears her throat, swallowing the bite.

"It's not fair that you shut my mouth with that juicy steak." She says and wipes a

tear from the corner of her eye.

"But yea... That sounds good!" She

lets out a nervous laugh, then adds,

"I-I just want to say... Be clear to

me

hate it when people do one

thing but mean another..."

"Okay.." I nod. "I can try that."

<<. Avery. >>

I bite the corner of my lips as affection spreads throughout my body. The fact that

he put in an effort to express himself makes my heart warm.

It's been over half an hour, and we have finished our food. We talked about work, my training, my family and his family. I am still sitting in his lap. A few people gave us dirty looks. But M didn't care.

"It's too much PDA for them.. Don't worry about it," he says.

"I am surprised why they haven't thrown us out of the restaurant yet," I whisper.

Miles takes a sip of his drink, then holds my thigh and presses to his crotch.

I suck in a breath. He is hard rock.

"They will throw us when we cross a limit. Speaking of that... Is public play a hard

limit, Avery?" h- him, confused.

"No.. it's a soft limit..." I remember I marked it 'Willing to try' on Dom's club

application.

My eyes widen when he takes my hand and puts it on his belt.

"Open it and stroke me."