His Soul & His Shame

What is it in her that he can't just get enough off of her? I can't question it or doubt her because she never gave me a reason to doubt her. She always smiles at me and has that warmth in her eyes and this makes me not hate her as much as I want to. It is so hard to hate them both when I love one and another. I don't know what I feel for her. She is not my friend and not an enemy.

She is just someone who snatched away the guy I loved my entire life. I know Ezra doesn't do relationships or Girlfriends and he doesn't even be with a girl for more than 2 months but she is with him for a whole year and still, they are together. "Stop putting your nose into others' business Ezra, it's not good." Joanna glared at the handsome beast who I call my best friend who stood tall with his signature smirk on his beautiful face and dangling on his arm is the infamous "Mitchell Shelton" looking gorgeous as usual. She likes when people call her Mitch.

She has electric blue eyes and blonde hair whereas I have Brown hair and Grey eyes. She has a killer body with abs where I have curves that are too much sometimes as now I am feeling insecure in front of them.

"Who said this is other's Business, Joey! This is Fay's business so I will be the one who will always put his nose in it." He scoffed at the end like it's absurd that Joanna has said something totally weird.

Ezra is possessive over me, whether the opposite person is a girl or a guy. He never let people between us if I tried to befriend anyone or like some guy but as usual, he dates every girl on the planet and has friends in the entire world. This is one of the things I hate about him.

"Hi, Fay! How are you? It's like we met a long time ago." Mitch said with her sweet honey voice, see how I am thinking sweet things about her when I have to hate her.

"Hey, hi Mitch I am doing great! what about you," I asked with a realistic fake smile I could muster up, and automatically my eyes turned towards him who was looking at me like I have done something wrong.

"Hey, Ezra!" I greeted him too knowing he would say something if I won't.

"Hey yourself Faye and what are you guys planning?" He ordered as if he owned me or he was my dad. Yeah, he can be my daddy if he wants. The desperate voice in me voiced her thoughts in my head making me warm with embarrassment because of my thoughts and need for my best friend.

"We are just planning to hang out, Ezra, it's not a big deal. Stop being a jerk." I muttered moving towards my car to take off and leave their presence. It is making me nauseous.

"you coming, Joanna! Or do I need to go home?" I yelled out to her to make a decision and I know she will not let me go home now after I said what I said to Ezra. She is probably proud of me and Ezra is pissed.

"Coming, wait up." She yelled back but I was stopped by a hand clutching my elbow and making me halt in my steps and forced me to face him. I know from the cologne who that will be. He never gives me any space.

"What is that baby girl! Hmm? I clearly said last night that we are going to talk today and now you are making plans with her." We were so close up right now that if one of us moved our lips will touch.

"You are hurting me, Ezra," I said tears pooling in my eyes because of the pain he is crushing my arms and pain in my heart seeing him angry and being with her.

"I am sorry baby girl, I didn't mean to hurt you, I am sorry." He started apologizing repeatedly checking my arms and I nodded my head no and backed away from him.

Did I tell you that Ezra has a short temper? No! Then yeah he is pretty short-tempered and it is his weakness. Anyone can rile him up easily.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

"it's okay I am fine and there as I said last night there is nothing to talk about and yeah you were being rude to Joanna earlier that's why I said what I said," Disbelief can be seen on Ezra's Face, this is the first time I am talking to him like this and I have to do this to remove myself from his life.

Joanna and Mitch, we're standing some feet away from us and I am seeing Mitch being so impatient and worried at the same time for the first time I have known her. She usually looks so composed all the time and this is new for me to see her like this.

Did I and Ezra's friendship bother her? Is she just being nice in front of us but is against our Friendship?

Ughhh! My head is going to burst with all these thoughts.

"I don't care what I said or what you said but now we are going to talk and that's final." He said before holding my hand ready to drag me towards his car.

"Excuse me! Mr. Rude Ezra Irwin, you just can't take my best friend away from me and force her to go with you." Joanna stepped in front of us glaring at Ezra like she is going to kill him off.

"I can do whatever I can miss Rude Joanna whatever and Faye is my best friend and she has only one best friend and that is me." Ezra countered Joanna and pulled me towards his car ready to throw me inside it.

Mitchell is still standing where Joanna and she were standing before seeing Ezra with sad and longing eyes. Why is that look in her eyes! She has him then why is she looking like I was the lucky one but not her.

"Ezra stop, Ezra! I said stop." He is dragging me to his car and Joanna is following us throwing fancy words towards Ezra but he gave a deaf ear to her words and dragged me.

"I said to stop the F up Ezra and I am not going with you anywhere so leave." I pulled my hand from his hold and stood beside Joanna. Mitch moved from her spot making her face neutral like always and stood beside Ezra. Ezra looked at her like he is seeing her for the first time today like she is not here the entire drama he created. He had forgotten her because of his temper.

"Sorry, but you are going with me, that's final Fay." He opened The passenger's door and signaled me to get in. He again forgot that Mitch is standing and waiting.

"I do think you can boss her around Ezra, she is not that teenager or child anymore whom you have bossed all your life," Joanna said, gritting her teeth and standing in front of me and the car.

"Ezra, please if you want to talk to her then let us all go somewhere." Mitch chipped in and I think it's a good idea because Ezra is so persistent and stubborn no one can win against him in stubbornness.

"I think Mitch is right," I looked to Joanna to understand and get in the car.

"Okay, because you two are asking nicely, not like someone who is being so hard-headed." Ezra Glared at Joanna.

"Ugh! Whatever." Joanna groaned and settled into Ezra's car and Mitch sat beside her and I sat beside Ezra.

I know where he will take us, we always go to the same hangout place and I don't even know what I want to talk to him about. There is nothing to talk about.

It is so hard to push Ezra away and I hope no one gets hurt in the end.