I Rejected You, Alpha

ELEIA’S POV

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Two nights of nightmares are enough for bags to form under my eyes .

I have laid awake since two am , unable to sleep and I just sat on the bed , watching Aiden snore peacefully .

It was the same dream , the exact same dream and I think that it’s the cause of my stress .

Aiden and I barely looked at one another yesterday and today we finally get the results .

I move to the couch , wrapping s blanket around my shoulders as I sit with my knees pulled up to my chest , watching the dark clouds turn lighter , the sun shining behind them and I can’t help but feel sick , vile rising as I wait each passing second .

I’m tired , but I refuse to dream that horrifying nightmare again .

My mouth starts to water and the nausea is getting worse , I throw the blanket off me before rushing to the bathroom , throwing up as I sit on my knees in front of the toilet .

A hand brushes my hair back before the other rubs my back , “Are you okay ?” Aiden’s sleepy voice asks and I nod as my head hangs over the toilet , my lips parted as my saliva drips from my mouth .

I sit upright , standing up and he lets my hair go as I rinse my mouth with water .

“You’re sick .” He points out , “I’m pregnant .” I scoff , hating the word .

Why should I even be a mom ?

I know nothing of being a parent , I have never looked after a child my entire life…

My eyes are watery as I turn and I try to blink the tears away as I look up at the ceiling .

“Come back to bed .” He offers his hand and I shake my head , “I’m good .” I lie , I wish that I could climb back into bed and sleep for eternity , but I have important things to do .

“Just for another hour , you look like you haven’t slept .” He points out the obvious and I roll my eyes , crossing my arms over my chest as I hug myself and I shoulder him as I stride out of the bathroom .

I don’t want to talk about how I haven’t slept because I had yet another nightmare , the same one .

“I’m just kind of hungry .” I mutter as he follows me to the room and the excited smile on his face is priceless .

“Okay , we can go eat something .” He smiles and I nod , grabbing a jersey and I put socks on .

Heading to the door , he stands on the first step down , smiling at me before turning his back and he holds his arms backwards .

Annoyed with him not moving , I glare at the back of his head , “What are you doing ?” I snap at him and his head turns as he faces back to me , “You have socks on Eleia , get on my back .” He demands and I shake my head , “I’m not in the mood for this , just move .” I try to squeeze past him but he blocks me with his arm , “You can slip and fall and lose that baby .” He grits out possessively .

“Wouldn’t you love that .” I beam sarcastically and his entire body turns as he looks at me with a sad and hurt expression , his eyebrows are furrowed together while the edges of his lips are turned down , “Do you think I’m a monster ?” His head slightly tilts to the side and I shrug , “No , but you don’t want this child because you think it’s Regan’s .” I point out and he rolls his eyes as if I were overreacting , but I am the only one saying what he’s thinking .

“I don’t care if it’s his kid Eleia .” He sighs and I scoff before lifting one foot , pulling my sock off and I do the same with the other , tossing it back into the room .

“I can walk .” I grit out each word and his jaw tenses before he stands to the side and lets me walk down the stairs .

I wasn’t afraid of these stairs until he said that I could fall and lose my child .

With shaky hands , I cling to the railing as I slowly walk down , but even though I try to not make it obvious that I’m afraid , my body does .

“Let me just …” his hand holds my shoulder and I freeze , “No , leave me alone .” I snap and he sighs , letting go of me .

I never thanked the goddess for getting me safely down a flight of stairs until right now before we head to the kitchen .

After we ate eggs on toast , the landline phone right outside the kitchen rang and Aiden went to answer while I cleaned , but when he came back , his face said everything that I dreaded .

“What ?” I ask , I need him to say it , I need him to tell me the test came back .

“The test came back and we need to go in .” He forces a smile and I nod as I rinse the last plate and put it on the dish rack before drying my hands .

I feel stressed enough and for some kind of reason , I am not in a hurry at all to find out what the results are .

‘If you know , we might sleep better .’ Crystal chimes so positively and I just wish she could tell me who the dad was .

‘Unfortunately , I can’t .’ She mutters , sounding smug .

I close her link before I walk up the stairs and Aiden is right behind me . I think he’s more afraid than I am to slip and fall , but the railing is my guardian and I’m never letting go of it again .NôvelDrama.Org owns this.

We change into warm clothes and Aiden went down to make sure there’s actually a path to walk before we went .

Putting on my rain boots , I sigh as I gather my strength .

I know I can do this , I know that whatever the results are , we’ll be fine .

I stand up from the bed and head out of the room , slowly walking down the stairs with my one hand gripping the railing and the other in a fist next to my side , praying that I won’t fall .

It’s a big relief when I take the last step and I head to the door , finding Aiden shovelling a path .

“Come on .” He waves me over before continuing to shovel the the road for us to walk . Arriving at the hospital , my insides are shaking .

Aiden takes my hand as he leads us to the office of our doctor .

He knocks on the door respectfully , even if he is alpha and can barge in there like he owns the place , because he does .

“Come in !” The doctor beams and we head inside , sitting down .

“I have the results right here .” She holds an envelope in her hand , “I haven’t opened it because it’s yours to read and I did not want any business in knowing .” She shrugs before sliding the envelope over the counter .

I glance at Aiden , forcing a smile before I reach for the paper with shaky hands , blowing out a breath as I stare at the white envelope .

I want to know , I need to…

“Do we have to know ?” I look at Aiden and he gulps , staring at me with a blank expression .

“Right .” I nod , slowly opening the flap , watching the paper tear before I pull the results paper out .

It’s folded in three and I stare up at the doctor , “Do you mind if we do this privately ?” I ask and she smiles so gracefully , “Of course not .” She stands up and walks out .

I open the paper , squeezing my eyes shut as I pray that it’s Aiden’s kid .

I start to read the results and my eyes begin to water , my heart beating against my chest ,feeling like it’s about to beat out of my chest .

“What is it ?” Aiden asks , turning his body to me .

I feel like I can’t breathe , this is not happening to me…

He snatches the paper from my hands and I sob , my entire body feeling numb .

He crushes the paper in his hand before tossing it across the office , standing up.

“I need air .” He mutters before leaving me alone to deal with this mess .

I cannot believe that I’m having Regan Night , the brutal monster’s , child .

My hands fall on my stomach as I try to calm myself and the doctor comes in , kneeling beside me , “It’s okay , relax .” She rubs my back , being more supportive than my so called mate .

I shake my head , “I don’t know what to do…” I choke on my own words as hot tears stream down my face .

I wish this didn’t happen … why does these things have to happen to me ?

Can’t something in my life just be right ?

Can I not just be happy ?

Now I have to raise a kid that is going to remind me of the monster that took my virginity , my innocence and then broke my heart .

How am I suppose to love a kid that reminds me of a monster ?

How can I expect Aiden to be with me after this ?

I’m going to lose him too…