Lie To Me

Chapter 34: 34

"Let's eat." Hans called me from his living room. I've been staying in his pad for a week now.

I don't know but I can't afford to be alone in my apartment. I constantly feel sad and end up crying. I

feel like I'm going crazy.

I followed Hans to his kitchen and settled myself on the chair in front of him.

"He resigned." He said, I just nodded.

I haven't been to the office for a week and it's only here on Hans’ pad that I work. I didn’t know if I could

face my companions especially since they saw what happened. ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

It had been so awkward for all of us since then. Even back then no one moved us. We just bid

goodbyes and said take care then separate.

Fortunately, I brought my own car, otherwise it would have been more difficult for all of us.

"Won’t you even say anything?" He asked.

"I don't know what I should say." I said.

He shrugged.

"I heard he'll fly to Cuba." He said.

"Why are you telling me?" I asked.

"Nothing. I just want to share." Answer it.

I rolled my eyes.

Russel and I had finally parted. That day from our outing ended what's left for us. We had the closure

we deserved. Even though it took a long time, it still happened. What I heard was painful but at least it

was finally over. Now, I can say that I can move on without asking his reasons.

It was a long and tough battle and I'm proud of myself for making it here. I survived all the struggles

and am now free.

I should be happy.

"How can you say you don't love someone anymore?" Hansel suddenly asked.

We were already in the living room and had been watching the series on Netflix.

I looked at him.

"Do you like someone?" I asked him.

"It was for you." He answered. "How can you say that you don't love him anymore?"

"Did I say that?" I asked back instead.

It looks at me now. "You still love him?" He asked again.

I shrugged.

"I never said that I don’t love him anymore. My feelings won’t go away that easily, but it won't be

enough for me to go back to him. I was too hurt to give in anymore. We'll only be ruined if we insist." I

said. "We are better off without each other."

"Do you believe in him? In his explanations?" Question it again.

I shrugged again. "It doesn't matter if I take his explanation or not. All I asked was to hear it, I have. His

reason hurts me but I can't do anything about it, that was his choice."

"You're fine with that?"

I nodded. "I realized that I was really stupid, but he's more stupid than I was. He knew everything I did

for him but he prefers to ignore all that. He chooses to take his revenge rather than be happy with me.

What he did was crazy. "

"He was really sorry, though." Hans said.

I nodded. "He was sorry because he got caught. If I didn't find that out, it would definitely last longer

and I don't know if he can stand the revenge he's saying." I replied. "He can succeed and get revenge,

but he can also forget that and just continue his relationship with that woman." I added.

"Then, what are you so upset about the past days?"

"I don't know. I just feel sad." I replied. I even laughed to myself.

I honestly don’t really know why I felt so said and alone. I should be happy. But I feel the opposite. I just

feel sad.

"Do you need a psychiatrist?" Hans asked.

I stared at him and threw a pillow.

“I’m still far from being mentally ill!” I shouted at him.

He put his arms up. “I didn’t say that. What I meant by that is, you might want to consult to at least

know why. I mean, you were traumatized. A professional help would be a huge help for you to be

stable?” he said.

I shook my head.

“I’ll be fine. I know I can do this,” I said.

Hans shrugged. “Just tell me when you need me. I’m always here for you,” he said.