My Fake Lover

#Lexi’s POV:

…Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

“I like you Tyler Evans. And if you don’t like me back, don’t tell me, just go ahead and walk away.” I stared at my own reflection and then sighed. I walked out of my bathroom and dropped myself down on my bed so I was facing the ceiling.

Yeah, I said it out loud, but not to Tyler’s face. I only wish I had. I have to tell him how I feel and I’m being a pathetic looser by practicing to myself. Like that’s going to help. I couldn’t even say ‘I love you’ out loud.

Yesterday we had kissed. And not just any kiss. The best kiss I had ever shared. It wasn’t the first time we’ve kissed, but it was the best even though all were amazing. The last one was different, it felt more… real.

All the other kisses were for the sake of the whole fake boyfriend thing. And now that I bring it up, we’re still supposed to be fake dating. We never told anyone that we ‘broke up’ yet. But I don’t want to fake break up. But I don’t want to be his fake girlfriend either, because I want to be his real girlfriend.

Ugh, I’m a mess!

I got up and and went back into my bathroom. I took a warm shower and changed into a blue tank top and high waisted dark blue skinny jeans. I tucked my tank top inside my jeans and added a blue and black checkered button up, but I left it open. I also put my hair into a high pony tail.

As soon as I stepped into the kitchen, I was greeted by the nice smell of fresh pancakes.

“Good morning!” Ethan yelled with his sticky syrup hands in the air.

“Good morning cutie.” I smiled at my cute little brother. “And mom.” I added.

“Am I not a cutie?” She raised an eye brow. “I did give birth to Ethan and you.”

“Yeah yeah…” I rolled my eyes at my mom as I grabbed a plate of pancakes.

“So where are you going this Saturday morning?” My mom asked.

“What makes you think I’m going anywhere?” I asked her with a shrug as I plopped down on the swag beside Ethan’s.

“Because your never home on the weekends.” She replied.

I furrowed my eyebrow together. Was I really always gone? I really needed to spend more time with my family.

“I guess I’m just going to stay here and watch Netflix and eat Nutella. Wanna join?” Netflix and Nutella is life, I swear.

Before my mom had the chance to answer, my phone began to ring. I pulled it out my butt pocket and looked at the caller id that read ‘Emmy’ for Emily.

“Doesn’t look that way to me.” My mom smiled when she saw who called me, applying to my plan for being lazy and watching Netflix all day. I didn’t say anything to her but answered my phone.

“Hey, what’s up?” I said instead of a simple ‘hello?’.

“Hey best friend!” Emily said loudly in excitement.

“Hey.” I said again.

“So, I was wondering…” She trailed off. “If you wanted to join me at the carnival with Caleb?” She asked.

As soon as I heard the word ‘carnival’, I jumped in excitement and knew that for sure I was going to go, and nothing can stop me. “Yes.” I said immediately without hesitation. “Well, I don’t have anything better to do.” I said even though I was planning on watching Netflix. And honestly, that’s an amazing thing to do.

“Okay.” Emily laughed. “We’re going to be there in an hour.” She said.

“Okay. Is it cold out? In case I bring a jacket?”

“No, it’s pretty nice out.”

“Okay.”

When we ended the call, I didn’t need to go get dressed since I already did, so I spent the hour watching reruns of Pretty Little Liars with my mom since she didn’t have work today. But just like Emily said, they arrived at just about an hour.

“Ready to go?” Emily asked when I opened the door.

“Yup.” I said, popping the ‘p’ as I walked out the door, yelling a goodbye to my mom before I shut the it. “I really need to talk to you about something.” I told her seriously as we made our way to Caleb’s car.

“Shoot.”

“Well not now.” I said, eyeing Caleb whose sitting in the car. He’s Tyler’s cousin and there’s no doubt that he’d tell Tyler everything that he’d heard.

Emily made an ‘O’ with her mouth as if she understood. “Tyler?” She asked.

I nodded just as we made it to the car. I sat in the back and Emily at the front next to Caleb.

And when I saw Emily shooting Caleb a big smile, I only just realized how big of a third wheeler I’m going to be today.

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I looked at all the rides from the back seat of the car. The Farris wheel was the one that stood out the most from all of them. When Caleb stopped the car and turned off the engine, I walked out of the car followed by Emily and Caleb.

When we got in, we started off by playing a couple of the games.

“There you are!” I heard Caleb say after a short while. I turned to his direction only to freeze in my spot.

I’m. Going. To. Kill. Emily.

Tyler looked at me for a second with no emotion or any type of expression. But then looked back at Caleb. Maybe there was a small smile but I couldn’t tell. I was to… freaked out.

What the hell was he even doing here?!

Not that I didn’t want him here. Wait. I don’t want him here. We just kissed for crying out loud and I walked away from it because I was such a freaking dumbass.

“Caleb, can you come get cotton candy with me?” Emily asked Caleb but didn’t let him respond. She grabbed him by the sleeve and dragged him away from us.

Oh my god, she totally did that on purpose.

But that’s what I wanted to do with Tyler. I just wanted to drag him with me to the bathroom and make out with him for hours. But of course I wouldn’t do that even though I wanted to.

“Hey Lexi-poo.” Tyler smirked teasingly as soon as Caleb and Emily left. That’s when I remembered the last time we were here together, we were doing the fake couple thing.

“Hey jerk.” I smirked in return.

He was a jerk, and still is for not saying any feelings he had for me. If he actually did.

I couldn’t help but think we’re actually going to have fun toady.

Tyler rolled his eyes and started walking around the carnival. I followed behind him. “You don’t have to worry about the kiss. It’s nothing.” He said after a while of silence.

When those words left his mouth, it felt like I’ve just been dumped by him. It’s like my heart shattered in a thousand tiny pieces.

It’s nothing?

It’s nothing?! Is he freaking for real?!

I can’t believe it. It’s like the kiss wasn’t even real for him, like it was just a part of the stupid fake couple thing. I started to get upset, or more like I was getting angry.

I’m freaking in love with him! He can’t just kiss me and think it’s nothing.

I walked faster until I was standing by him. I pulled his sleeve so he stopped on his tracks and faced me.

Your not a chicken! You can do it Lexi!

“You stupid idiot. You can’t just kiss me like that!” I yelled. “I freaking like you and that kiss meant everything to me! It’s driving me crazy thinking that it meant nothing to you! So once you realize that everything is not all about you for once, let me know.” I stormed off ignoring the odd stares people were giving me and the complete shock and confusion Tyler had towards me. He didn’t expect any of that he just got. It was just thrown to his face.

What the hell did I just do? I was all cool then boom, I blow up.

This is what I get for loving jerks like him.

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