Seeker

The village of Corrickmore was quiet that evening, except for a few wandering fishermen too drunk to go home and too loud to stay in the pub. Their voices echoed off the houses facing the waterfront, and they were answered by residents throwing open windows and yelling for them to shut up before the police were called.

Shinobu and Alistair walked down the opposite side of the street, directly along the water. Their bellies were full of mutton-and-onion pie from the Friar’s Goat, the pub at the north end of town, and they were sharing a bottle of beer large enough for four or five ordinary men, and nearly large enough for Alistair.

“Mind you, not too much of the drink,” Alistair said as Shinobu tipped the bottle up. “We’ve got a full night ahead of us.” He clapped his son on the shoulder, causing Shinobu to spit a huge mouthful of beer all over his own shoes.

“Ah, take a wee bit more than that, Son,” his father told him, tilting the bottle up to Shinobu’s lips again. “And a bit more still.”

Shinobu shook his head and handed the bottle back. He wasn’t interested in beer, and he didn’t fancy getting his shoes any stickier than they already were. He danced up to his father like a boxer in a ring and pounded the older man’s stomach with his fists. This was very much like hitting Michelangelo’s statue of David; Alistair towered above him, and Shinobu was in more danger of hurting his fists than he was of hurting his father. Alistair only chuckled as he took a long swig of the beer.

“Tell me what we’re doing tonight, Da.” Shinobu was moving all around the big man now, landing a punch wherever possible.

“Cannae do that.”

They watched the fishermen, who had reached the corner and were getting louder as the final verse of their drinking song dissolved into chaos. Then one stumbled off home, leaving those remaining to argue their way through the first verse of something new.

“Don’t look unhappy, do they?” his father asked, running a hand through his red hair.

“Who, the fishermen?” Shinobu asked. “They’re drunk off their faces.”

“And we’re not?”

“I’m not. I’ve got work to do tonight.”

“Ye think work cannae be done drunk? Sometimes being drunk improves it,” Alistair said.

Shinobu smashed a fist playfully into his father’s gut. “Come on. Hit me back!” Alistair took a lazy swing at him, which Shinobu ducked easily. “Your son’s taking his oath tonight! You can do better than that.”

“Yon drunkards don’t look unhappy,” Alistair said thoughtfully as he took another swing at Shinobu.

Shinobu bobbed away from his father’s fist and looked at the three remaining fishermen, one of whom was now throwing up noisily into a public rubbish bin.

“They don’t know the secrets of the universe, maybe,” Alistair went on. “They’re not part of our special … club. Still, they have a good time.”

“Dad, one’s wiping his vomit on the other one’s shirt.” He punched his father’s shoulder with enough force to fell a lesser man.

“Oomph,” Alistair said, absorbing the shock. They both studied the fishermen more closely as another one retched onto the sidewalk. “Aye, maybe they’re a bit disgusting,” Alistair admitted.

He crossed the street and led Shinobu away from the waterfront, up a smaller road with rows of tidy brick houses.

“Mind you,” his father continued, making another attempt at whatever point he was trying to make, “those eejits are not the best example. But these houses here, they’re full of people. All sorts of people.”

“Dad, I’ve been here before, you know.”

“Aye, that I do know,” his father said with a smile. He tapped the side of his nose with one finger as though sharing a secret. “More than you let on.”

Corrickmore was the closest town to the estate, thirty miles away. And it was true, Shinobu had visited it on more occasions than he’d mentioned to his father. There were girls in the village. And girls, Shinobu had discovered early on, were quite happy with the way Shinobu looked (“like an Asian film star”), with the way he moved (“like a tiger”), with the way he spoke (“such a gentleman!”)—with everything about him, really.

“At any rate,” Alistair continued, taking another long drink of the beer, “a lot are happy. Even without all the special things you’ve been taught.”

Shinobu finally stopped dancing around his father and came to rest in front of him. He shoved hard on Alistair’s chest. It was like halting a locomotive, and Shinobu was pushed back a few paces before Alistair came to a stop.

“You think I’d be happier without the things I’ve learned?”

His father looked down at him, then away. “I’m not saying that. Not exactly.”

He stepped around Shinobu and continued walking. The town was quiet here, lit by a few streetlamps and the occasional glow of a television inside a house. The only noise was the water lapping against the pier a few blocks away. Alistair turned again, choosing another street.

“What I’m saying,” he continued, “is I’ve raised you on the estate, filled yer head with my world.” Alistair was not much of a talker. Shinobu could tell he was straining to pick the right words. “It’s natural you want to do what you’ve been taught, but … you have a choice, Son. Did I never tell you that?”

“I don’t need a choice, Da. I love it. The fighting, the way I use my mind. All the old stories.” He punched his father several times in the small of his back to make his point. Alistair hardly seemed to notice.

“It’s not quite like those old stories anymore,” Alistair muttered. He was quiet for a moment, then: “Your mother liked to walk to town. Do you remember? She liked to see the outside world.”

“Of course I remember.”

Surprised at the change in topic, Shinobu stopped hitting his father and looked up to study his face. As a rule, Alistair did not mention Shinobu’s mother, Mariko. She’d been killed in a car accident seven years before. Shinobu’s memories of her were fading, but he clearly recalled certain things, like walking with her in the meadow on the estate while she explained to him what honor was. He remembered her very lovely Japanese face and her small stature—she’d looked like a doll next to his father. Even so, she’d always seemed just as strong as he was. Except near the end, when she was sick, just before the accident.

“Your mother didnae want you to spend yer whole life on the estate,” Alistair said.

“But I have spent my whole life on the estate. I’ve spent my whole life training to go There, Da. My whole life, and now I’m ready. Tonight we’re going together.”

Alistair stopped walking. He bent his shoulders so his eyes were level with Shinobu’s.

“It’s not There you have to worry about,” he said gently. “It’s where we go after.”

“Tell me.”

“I cannot. I wish I could, but I can’t.”

Alistair looked pained. He rubbed his face with his hands. They had stopped in front of a row house. The curtains were drawn, but they could see the shapes of a family moving inside, and there were kitchen noises: a kettle whistling, someone yelling that the biscuits were done.

“Do you recognize this place, Son?”

Shinobu surveyed the house, smiled. “A girl I know lives here.” He turned to his father, surprised. “How did you know?”

“I know a few things,” Alistair said. “Is she your girlfriend?”

Shinobu noticed a figure moving in an upstairs bedroom. It was the girl in question. Alice. He could see the top of her head near the window.

“Not sure,” he said, and shrugged. “She seems to like me. She let me kiss her.”

“Did she? Was it nice?”

“It was.” Shinobu smiled again. As if there could be any question that kissing girls was nice.

“Look around the town a moment, Son. Please. Look at the houses, the people, the life they have. Once you become a Seeker, once you take your oath, you won’t see the world in the same way.”

Shinobu glanced around, amused with his father—he had seldom heard the man string this many sentences together at once—but also confused. “Dad, I don’t know what you mean. My whole life, Quin and I have—”

“I know. And I know what you feel for Quin.”

Shinobu felt his face flushing, and he looked away. He could speak freely about any girl … except that one.

“She’s my cousin,” he murmured.

“Cousins” was the word they had grown up using, though their blood relationship was not nearly as close as that. Alistair and Fiona were second cousins, which made Quin and Shinobu third cousins. And somewhere, many generations earlier, an ancestor had remarried, which meant they were only half as related as they seemed. Shinobu had made as careful a study of their connection as he could without calling attention to his interest. Nevertheless, Quin always called Alistair her uncle and Shinobu her cousin, which made him unlovable except as a family member. And though she thought he was “beautiful”—her word; he’d heard her use it—his beauty to her was like the beauty in a painting, something you admire but do not want to touch. It was the worst kind of beauty, he thought.

“Aye, she’s your cousin,” Alistair agreed softly, “and more. You’ve trained together since you were small. You won’t want to leave her. But”—he glanced through an opening between the curtains at the people inside the house—“there’s a girl in there who seems to like you. I want you to know, you could stay here if you wanted. You could stay, and I would go. I wouldn’t take it amiss. Briac might take it amiss, but I would deal with that. It’s your choice.”

Alistair’s eyes were pleading. Shinobu had never seen that look on his father’s face before. It made him uneasy, as though the ground beneath his feet were subtly shifting.

“Da, please tell me why you’re saying this.”

“I can’t,” he answered. “I’ve sworn my own oath.” His eyes were locked on Shinobu’s, as if willing his son to read his mind. “But know: if you choose to come back to the estate with me, life will be different. You might love a woman as I love your mother”—Shinobu noticed he used the present tense, and wondered how drunk Alistair was—“but she will never know all of you.”

This evening was supposed to be a celebration, but Shinobu felt his discomfort growing under his father’s searching look. Why couldn’t the big man break the tension with a giant belch or by peeing on someone’s doorstep? But there was no sign of amusement in his father’s face.

Shinobu decided the awkwardness would remain until he took his father seriously. He stepped back from the house, moving to the middle of the street so he could see Alice in her upstairs bedroom more clearly. She was bent over a desk, doing homework, maybe. She was a pretty girl, and nice, and she loved when Shinobu gave her attention. She said she had never met anyone like him, that no “gorgeous boy” had ever wanted to talk to her before.Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.

Alistair was right. The world was full of people, and maybe a lot of them were happy. Certainly a lot of them were girls, and if he wanted, it would be easy to find the funniest, the prettiest, the happiest, and convince her to fall in love with him. But where would that leave him? Empty, he thought. There was one girl, the girl he had grown up with. Perhaps she would never love him like that, but already they shared a life, and a purpose. They would be like the Seekers of old, their skills and their good works becoming the stuff of legends. Tyrants beware, as the ancient Seekers had said. Shinobu and Quin would protect good people from harm. He could never leave that behind.

He turned and put his hands on Alistair’s arms. “Thank you, Father. I’ve made my choice. I want to go home.”

Shinobu was sure he was seeing a trick of the light, the dim and flickering streetlamp nearest them, because it looked for a moment as though Alistair was about to cry. Then his face cleared, and he nodded very gravely, as if the most important thing in the world had just been decided.

“Well then, my boy, let’s get back home.”