That Doctor Is Mine

“I’m sorry but I still love you.” He sincerely said to me. My tears starts to fall from my eyes. The tears that I had been holding back dripped when he told me he still ‘loves’ me.

Nothing seemed to come out of my mouth. I didn’t know what to say because at this time my heart seemed numb. If before, it was like a drum. Now, it looks like he was injected with anesthesia because of what he said.

That was the same word that I want to hear from him before.

I’m waiting for him to come to my house and tell me that. Say he just made a mistake and I’m really the one he loves non.

But as time went on, I also lost hope, until I decided to just forget him and move on with my life, for my baby.

I still love you Kent, but my heart cannot decide for now.

“I’m sorry for hurting you before. Sorry if I broke our promises. I’m sorry.” He is now crying in front of me.

“I’m sorry.” I said and suddenly stood up. “I have to go.” I said then took my bag. I walked away as I continued to wipe the tears from my eyes. I even heard him calling my name and chasing him, but I am fast enough until I get to my car.

I immediately started that and executed it. I want to think. I don’t want to give in to what he said right away. I feel, just a word from him that he loves me will allow me immediately.

I don”t want to rush into my decisions.

Now I want to go to a place where I can be alone and think clearly.

Nikita’s POV,

It’s been two days since Kent and I talked and I’ve also been meditating for two days.

I didn”t really know what to do. Should I accept him back into my life, into our son”s life?

I know he has the right to know about our son and my son also has the right to know his father.

But I’m scared. Scared of the fact that his son might just let us go like that again. Maybe the time will come for him to trade us over someone or something.

Is that really how you know Kent?

Not like that. But I’ve already experienced him exchanging for someone else, for his ex. Putting aside the happy times we had together just for her ex.

Yes, I can do that but things are not the same as before. I have a child who will definitely be hurt.

“Heyy mommy. I can’t sleep in my room, can I sleep here with you?” My son asked just entering my room. I smiled at him.

“Sure baby. You want me to read you a story?” I ask while patting the side of my bed where he often sits next to me.

“Nah. You already told me those. I want new. Can you buy me some story books again mommy?” Said my son while holding his Einstein toy.

“Of course.”

We are going to add piles of books to our house.

Sometimes, I just want to give Levi electronic books so that he won’t buy the book. When he finished reading a book, he would just pile it up at home.

He lay down next to me and hugged my waist. I looked at him.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“Baby, do you … want to meet your … daddy?” I ask him. He immediately looked up at me while frowning.

“Why? Is he here?” He, in turn, asked. My son is also missing.

“I’m the one who ask you first.” I pretended to be upset talking to my son.

“Of course, Mommy. Now, is he here?” He asked me. I just smiled at him in response.

I guess that’s the answer of what I’ve been thinking.

Maybe I should give him another chance … to prove himself to me, to us. I hope he will not waste this chance that I will give to him.

It takes a long time to build trust to someone, but it only takes a moment or a minute to break it. Maybe, taking risk to trust someone again, I think is not bad at all. That may be a new key for your better and long lasting relationship. Trusting is also loving. I love him, so I will trust him, no matter how it hurts before.

My son didn’t look up and just lay down next to me while hugging his Einstein stuff toy.

WHEN I woke up I called my secretary to see if I had an appointment today. What he said was nothing. I told him I will be working at home today and here I will arrange my presentation for the stockholders the next day.

I’ll bring Levi to his dad. I will tell Kent about our son.

Only now do I realize how selfish I have been for my son and his father.

I will no longer ask myself about the what if’s of my previous decision. Maybe God let that happen for us to be stronger and to test our love from each other. Because if God also wanted us to meet immediately, we should have met then.

I found out Lauren had left for another country. If God wanted us to meet right away, he should have crossed paths with Lauren for him to tell me.

They knew Mara before that Lauren and Kent’s marriage didn’t go through, but she chose not to tell me because she believed that I would be happier without him.

I didn’t even ask for news from Kent then because I would only get hurt. I’m really trying to move on right? How can I move on if I ask for news about him?

“Mommy, you don’t have a work today?” My son ask me while I helo him put his belt.

“I have baby. But I have someone to show you.” I said to him. His forehead furrowed.

“Is that my daddy?” He asked so I raised an eyebrow.

Hanep! He knew that immediately.

I just smiled and didn’t speak anymore.

Ate Marissa is gone now because I sent her home to her family in Leyte 2 days ago. I also stayed at home for two days so Levi was with me.

Being a Chief Executive Officer is not really easy but I am thankful because I can work here at home, unlike my previous work in Hanz’s company.

After I fixed Levi, we got in my car. I drove it to Kent’s company.

“Excuse me, is Mr. Fernandez? By the way, I’m Ms. Arellano.” I said to the office girl who was here across the door.