The Omega For Sale

Two weeks without Greyson. I couldn’t explain how I was feeling if I were asked. Everything in me craved the Alpha and that scared me more than I could explain. Since when did I become so attached?

Greyson was my first love and he really did show me good love. Not the kind that made me ask questions each day, or the kind that left me uncertain and longing.

He showed me the kind of love that filled a void that had begun in my chest for a long time. I could quite honestly say that I was addicted to the man but I couldn’t exactly tell why.

What I knew was, two weeks away from him was making me very depressed. Day in and out, I thought about him and what he had done to me and I weighed my options.

There was no anger left in me anymore. Two weeks away from him was enough to quench the rest of it, I was left with only sadness and emptiness, but I couldn’t bring myself to pack my things and go back to his home. I didn’t have the strength or courage to do it.

So everyday when Smith mentioned him, I only shook my head and told him I wasn’t ready and the Beta would usually purse his lips before nodding his head in agreement.

“Mommy?” Jessy called by my side and I blinked rapidly to clear the fog that had settled before my eyes due to my thinking.

“Yes babe?”

“Wanna go home mommy. Wanna see Mastah.” Jessy said and it felt like my heart was being stabbed.

I didn’t know what to tell her. She had stopped asking after him for a couple of days and I was starting to get grateful that she was at least forgetting him, but as I stared at her wobbling lips and tears filled eyes I knew that it wasn’t the case and will never be.

Jessy and Greyson had shared a special connection, one that I hadn’t even known when it had happened. One that also couldn’t easily be broken. It was unfair to tear her away from that like that.

Everyday when she drew, it was usually pictures of Greyson. Or pictures that had Greyson in them and that was proof of how much she missed him.

“Come here babe.” I urged and she scrambled all over the truck load of toys that Smith had gotten for her over the last two weeks into my arms.

“Soon babe. We’ll be going home soon okay?” I reassured and I knew it to be true.

If not for my sake then for the sake of my child, I needed to be back at the mansion as soon as possible. Jessy had a home now, I couldn’t take that away from her and condemn her to a life that she would hate.

We remained wrapped in each other’s arms for a while and it wasn’t until we heard the sound of tyre against gravel that we shifted in our position. That was a sound that we had gotten used to over the last two weeks. It meant Smith was home.

“Mastah!” Jessy called out and I furrowed my brows in confusion. Smith was yet to come through the door and I was wondering why she would call him Greyson. Did she miss the Alpha that much?

She shuffled out of my arms and made a beeline for the door, pulling it open and running outside. I wasn’t worried because I knew Smith was here and he would only bring her back in and so I began arranging her toys back into the box that held them but I paused mid air when I caught a scent.

This was a scent that I had spent the better part of two weeks craving. A scent that was already engraved in my mind and that I knew wouldn’t be leaving anytime soon.

Greyson? Greyson was here?

I didn’t have to roll around in my questions for too long because in the next second the Alpha was strolling into the room with Jessy in his arms. The four years old currently had her arms wrapped around his neck and was chatting his ear off telling him about the last two weeks in a rushed chatter.

In this moment, I envied Jessy a lot. I wished it would be easy for me to just run into his arms and for everything to fall into place for us again, but I couldn’t. Instead I was standing in the middle of the living area with a toy in my hand.Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.

My heart was racing faster than it ever had and I could feel my wolf pacing around, adding even more to my anxiety. Smith walked into the room and when our eyes connected, he looked away from me in what looked like shame.

“I had to Freya. I’m sorry.” He said and I swallowed heavily, hoping to chase away the lump in my throat.

“Jess, come help with me bringing out some stuff I got you from the car.” Smith urged and Jessy unwrapped her arms from Greyson’s neck to look at him.

“Toys?” She asked and Smith nodded.

“Yes, and some other things. Come on let’s go.”

“Mastah come with us? He’s big and stwong.”

“No no, he doesn’t have to come, it’s just for us to carry. He’ll be here when you come back.” Smith said and Jessy looked to Greyson for confirmation.

And it wasn’t until the Alpha nodded his head that she allowed herself be placed on the floor. I watched as they both walked back outside and for a moment I considered walking out with them.

I didn’t. I stayed in my spot and just continued to watch the closed door and after a couple of seconds in silence, I turned back around and continued packing up the toys. My heart still racing within my chest.

The tension in the air was so thick, it would take a knife to cut through, I wasn’t sure what to say or do and I felt more awkward than I had ever felt in my entire life.

I heard as he walked towards me and the closer he got to me, the harder my heart beat. It was a wonder how it was still in my chest at this point. A heart attack was going to be unavoidable if it continued like this for too long.

Greyson knelt beside me and it took me back to two weeks ago in the woods. It felt like such a long time ago but I could remember all the details very clearly. As if it had just happened.

“Freya please.” He began saying and at his voice a tear slipped out of my eyes.

“I’m very sorry. I don’t deserve your forgiveness, I know that. What I did to you is unexplainable and inhumane and I take full responsibility for my actions but I beg you Freya, please, find it in your heart to forgive me.

I don’t think I can continue living without you, living with the knowledge that you hold so much resentment towards me. I won’t be able to survive it for much longer. I know what I’ve done, but please allow me make up for it. I will make up for everything even if it takes me years if you give me a chance and that’s all I’m asking. I’m so sorry Freya, so so sorry.”

The pain in the Alpha’s voice didn’t exactly sit right with me. I had never heard the man sound so resigned, hurt, powerless in all my time staying with him and so finally I turned so I was facing him. At this point I had tears running down my eyes freely and the sight of him with tears in his eyes too broke my heart.

Was it okay to believe that he wasn’t exactly in the right state of mind when he did what he had done to me? It didn’t cover up for it, not in the least. But it helped to be able to separate the man I had fallen in love with, the man that was currently on his knees begging me and the man that I hated with a passion.

It helped to see the man that had packed and planned a picnic while I was asleep, the man that had prepared a birthday party for Jessy in a week differently from the man that had dragged me by my hair.

“You broke me Greyson. You hurt me so deeply.” I said and the Alpha nodded his head.

“I know. I’m so sorry, it wouldn’t ever take it back but I’m willing to do anything you want that could help take away the hurt. Any punishment you might have.” He said.

I didn’t have any punishment for him, in fact that wasn’t even something I had ever considered. It was either forgive him or not. I didn’t believe that there was any need to make him suffer, well more than my absence had done.

I crawled towards him and when I was close enough, he opened his arms and I fell into them. His scent engulfed me and calmed every single nerve in my body immediately.

“Please come back home, I beg you. I miss you both so much. Nothing is the same anymore. Please Freya.” Greyson whispered into my ear but I remained quiet.

There wasn’t really an option here for me, there was no way in hell that I was going to get Jessy to stay back here at Smith’s place. Not after she had already seen Greyson. There was no way I could make her stay back while she watched him leave.

And then for myself, did I really want to remain here? Especially if Jessy was going back with him. I sighed heavily.

“I’m scared. Things have definitely changed for us both and maybe I’m not ready to deal with that yet. Plus, I heard Emilia escaped, I don’t know what she’s going to try and do next.” I whispered back.

“You don’t have to ever worry about her. I promise. Leave all of those things to me, I’ll handle her.”

“Alright. But this doesn’t mean I have forgiven you and you’re going to have to prove that the picture of that monster that I have in my head is nowhere around you again and he’ll never ever resurface again. I don’t care how you do it Greyson, but that’s just how it’s going to be.”

“I swear on my life, I will do everything I can to prove that to you.” He said and I nodded in response.

“Now let go of me.” I said.

“Why?” He whined and I smiled.

“Because I need to go and pack up our things, if we intend to leave today. Smith has gotten a lot of stuff for Jessy, don’t even ask me why cause I don’t know myself.” I said and Greyson chuckled a little.

It was half an hour later that I was coming back out with two full bags in my hands. Greyson and Jessy were bent over her toys and I rolled me eyes at the two. All the toys that I had packed into the box were now scattered around them again, but Jessy looked happy, so so happy.

Smith on the other hand was standing at the other end of the living area just watching father and child play and the wanting that I saw in his eyes made me approach him.

“So you’re leaving?” He said and I offered him a small smile before nodding.

“Well I’m going to miss your cooking.” He joked and I laughed a little, making the Beta smile in return.

Although he was smiling, I could see that his smile didn’t exactly reach his eyes, a certain sadness still remained within his depths and that confused me.

“Are you alright?” I asked.

“Yes, of course. I’m glad you all are reunited again and things are going so well already. I’m just going to miss you both.” He said

I could understand that, the last two weeks had brought about a great friendship between myself and Smith and even with Jessy too and I was going to miss that.

“We’ll miss you too and we are going to try and visit as often as possible.”

“Well that is if Greyson ever lets you both out of his sight again.” He said and we both laughed.

Jessy from her spot in the living area began laughing and we both turned our head in her direction.

“Why are you laughing babe? You don’t even know what they said.” Greyson said, clearly amused.

But Jessy only looked to me for help causing me to burst out laughing again.

This was another of the things that I missed doing over the last two weeks; laughing.

And as we all shared another round of laughter at something Jessy had said, I felt hope blossom within me. Maybe things had not changed as drastically as I feared that they might have.