Chapter 35 Chapter 35
Chapter 35
Making my way through the people again, back the way I came, I find James and ask him if we can
talk. He gives me a worried look and excuses himself before following me back into the corner. "Is it
about my father?" He asks. "The guards reported back that they saw nothing."
"No, it's not. Ava told me about this King of Alphas thing. What is she talking about, James? How come
you never said anything?"
He lets out a breath and relaxes. "It's nothing. It's just some idea that a few people have been tossing
around."
"She told me that it was discussed at some Alpha meeting and that your name was brought up. If it's
being talked about at some all-important meeting then it sounds serious to me."
James grabs my hand, using the bond as some sort of assurance. "If I thought it was important, I would
have told you. It's been in discussion for a while, even before I met you, Rae. It's not likely. And the
meetings happen every two or three months. I didn't go to the last one because I was handling things
with you. They aren't as secretive or as interesting as they sound, I promise."
I sigh. "Okay. I just feel like I'm finally being let in on all the secrets, and I want you to tell me about
everything. I want to learn and grow, so if there's anything else that I don't know about, and that
involves you, I'd like you to tell me before anyone else. We're a team, right?"
"Of course," he murmurs. "And I will."
The night continues on, and after another hour I find myself nodding off. As we stand and talk, I lean
against James, depending on him to hold me up and not let me tumble to the ground. At one point my
eyes shut and stay shut, and James gently taps my back to wake me up. "The party is almost over,
why don't you head back and sleep," he says softly into my ear while the two men across from us
babble on.
"No, no, I can't go. It's my party," I mumble, forcing myself to lean off of him, showing him that I'm not
tired. "I can wait."
"I promise everyone is leaving in a few minutes. I'll meet you back at the house after I thank everyone
for coming."
"No," I protest, "I need to thank them, too."
I stand for five more minutes before I feel James move. Assuming he's walking to more people to start
the 'Thank You's,' I mindlessly trail along. "Can you take her home, Theodore? She's falling asleep."
Awake again, I quickly mutter, "I'm not. I'm going to say goodbye."
"Let's go," Theodore says and grabs my arm, leading me out like a grandmother. I give James a glare
and he smiles and I can't help but not glare because he's so charming.
"I'll be there in half an hour, okay?" James calls as we exit the building.
I obediently walk with Theodore, but I can't help but say, "I could have stayed. I'm fine. I didn't get much
sleep last night, but I can handle it for a few more minutes."
"We're already on the way," he says and I listen, beginning to look forward to my bed.
It's dark now, the sky blends with the tops of the trees, and I can hardly tell the two apart. My eyes don't
really watch the ground as I walk, but I don't stumble, and I'm sure it's because I'm busy dreaming of
sleep, and Theodore is doing all the work. He pulls me out of the way when something comes up on
the path, a tree root or stone that I'd be sure to trip over.
Thinking of myself laying in bed is easy when I've only slept for four hours in nearly two days. I was
nervous for the party before I had my battle with myself in the mirror, and the anxious thoughts came at
night. I laid beside James and enjoyed the feeling of it for the majority, finding a simple distraction in
him.
Theodore takes me all the way to the front door and I say 'goodnight' and 'thank you' before he leaves.
The house is empty, Gail and Theresa being gone by now. I've never liked the feeling of an empty
house because it feels eerily full when I'm the only one home. All of the stray bumps and creeks spook
me like a child. When I was younger, and when my mother would be gone at night, I would stay strictly
in my bedroom with the door shut. Every light would be on in my safe space because for some reason
children think lights can save them.
I make my way upstairs and struggle with the zipper of my dress, twisting my arm around and pulling
down, frustrated and exhausted. It eventually gives in and I abandon it on the floor, a black puddle for
me to accidentally step in later.
I groan and slip on a pair of pajamas before crashing to the bed, too lazy to do anything else. I stretch Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.
out like a cat, letting the blankets absorb me fully, pulling the edge to my chin. All is well and I drift off
within minutes, expecting to wake up when James gets home. Sounds prod at my sleeping head, but
nothing wakes me, not until I hear the bedroom door open.
The scent fogs my mind and I struggle to get up, feeling like my body weighs ten times heavier than
normal. "James?" I croak.
Everything is quite a blur until I am yanked up by my arm. Like being splashed with water, I panic into a
state of alertness, my heart shooting forward along with my body. The grip is tight and unfamiliar, yet
the scent grows familiar so I look up. It looks like James, but some odd version of him. My eyes
struggle to focus and everything seems to vibrate. It takes a second or two until I realize it's his father,
but by then he's forcing me to my feet.
My legs refuse to work along with my head, but his father doesn't stop.
"What are—What are you doing here? What are you doing?" I grumble, regaining my body back.
"James isn't here."
He attempts to take me into the bathroom, but I hold back. "James isn't here," I say again, my
conscience returning. "You need to leave, now."
His father is rushed with his movements and he grabs me again, jerking me into the bathroom and
letting me fall to the tiled floor. Nearly hitting my head on the bathtub, I frantically attempt to get up, but
he pushes me back down then grabs something out of his pocket. I catch I glimpse of the blade and my
heart plummets, screams leaving me as soon as I can muster. He blocks my sudden run to the door,
wrapping his arms around me. I kick and kick and try to break free, blood rushing to my face.
Hot tears stream down my flushed cheeks as he shuffles towards the tub. My throat is dry and strained
but the cries and screams continue to erupt from within, bringing him to tighten his hold each time.
He pulls me into the tub with him. My feet shoot up and down, my heels hitting the porcelain, and I try
to make as must noise as possible. James' father's hand covers my mouth, his nails digging into my
skin, and his other holds up the thin blade. Not letting him get ahold of my arms, I keep moving. "We're
gonna have to do this the hard way, huh?" He grunts, his hand falling from my mouth for only his arm to
wrap around my neck. The hold isn't too hard, but I still can't breathe, and I know it's because he
doesn't want to leave a dark mark. Tears continuously fall, and the panic grows into a dense cloud
around me, suffocating me.
"You didn't finish the diary, did you?" He says near my ear, my face turning a deeper red. My hands
claw at his arm and the logic for survival settles in, my animalistic side taking over my brain. As he
wants, I go limp. After a few seconds, he lets go and I fight my body to not take a deep breath or
cough. I don't last long though, and I spring to life, managing to slip from his grasp. Scrambling from
the tub, I land hard on my side, my hip already feeling bruised. My head is heavy and my throat is tight,
but I crawl for the door and tug on the handle, falling with it as it opens.
He's quick to grab my legs, but I look back and kick again, causing him to lose his hold. I get a good
shot at his chest and he lets out a violent cough.
Sweat rolls down my forehead and I get to my feet, running down the hall as I cry out. It's an inaudible
mix of 'help' and 'James', but the ground seems to wave and my head becomes dense with a harsh
dizziness, the pressure pushing me down the stairs. I slide down and cry out again, this time from the
extra hits on my hip. My hair sticks to my face, and I scratch it away and I struggle to get up.
James' fathers pounding footsteps become louder and louder, and I contemplate running to the kitchen
for a knife or running for the front door. Knowing that I have to shift, I dash for the door and manage to
get my hand on the handle, but he grabs my hair. I yelp and whine as he pulls me back, my hair
knotted around his fingers. He attempts to wrap his arm around my neck again, but I quickly duck, my
hair ripping out. In a flash, the handle is mine again and I yank the door open, hitting him and sprinting
for my life. With my hip screaming, I glance back and glance back, only hearing my heavy breaths as I
power on.
The last thing I see before shifting and running into the woods is a large wolf tackling his father to the
ground. All the movements blend into one blur, but I swear that his father stopped moving. I swear the
man is dead in the grass, facing the moon.
The Goddess stares down at him.
The truth follows me, and I cannot comprehend anything that has just happened. His voice plays over
and over in my head, 'you didn't finish the diary, did you?'
I bury myself in the trees and I don't look back again.