Uncontrollable Tempration

He looked disappointed for a second but he left me and allowed me to leave his office.

I don’t know why but I had to get away from Sean. I felt awful for doing so but at the same time I felt awful when I was with him…. kissing him.

I still love Mr Wilson and it didn’t feel right with any other person yet, except him.

I heard someone call me on my way out of the office but I didn’t stop or look back. I just kept going. I needed to get away from here as soon as possible.

***

“Phoebe I’m sorry I left the office without you, even though I promised to leave together.” I apologized profusely.

I haven’t exactly been a good friend to Phoebe lately and I feel bad about it. I left her in the office after I told her we would leave together. She was the one who called me on my way out but I had ignored her.

“I don’t even know why I came here in the first place.” She complained.

“It’s because you love me!” I beamed. “And I invited you over. There’s something important that I need to tell you.”

“What is it?”

I know she wouldn’t be happy with what I’m about to tell her but I had to. I thought this over and made my decision.

“You’re a really good person Phoebe and I’m glad I met you at Wilson & Co. But I have decided to resign.”

At first she looked at me like I was playing. When she saw that I was serious her eyes almost bulged out of their sockets.

“Seriously? You’re resigning? WHY?”

“I can’t continue working there. Things have changed and I don’t feel suitable in the company anymore.”

“Oh my gosh! Don’t tell me this has to do with Mr Wilson!”

“A huge chunk of it does! He’s no longer showing up to his own company because of me! He’s been avoiding me and that can’t go on forever. If he doesn’t want to see me anymore then he should just fire me. But he hasn’t so I’m making everything easier by resigning. I don’t want to be an obstacle between him and work.”NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.

“Sophia! Stop personalising the reason for him not showing up to the office! He may actually have a valid reason for not coming, one that doesn’t involve you! What makes you think he’s avoiding you?”

“Because! He talks to everyone else in the office apart from me! As his personal assistant he didn’t even tell me he was going on a trip to Maui which means he planned it without me and that never happens! Also, did you know he’s actually around?! Yes! He’s in New York, Sean and I saw him yesterday. That was the first time I saw him in a month and he just pretended like I wasn’t there, like I didn’t exist. He didn’t say a word to me.”

“So that’s why you want to quit.”

Phoebe didn’t get it. I was in love with Mr Wilson and he doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore.

“What is my role as a personal assistant when the person I’m supposed to be assisting has gone MIA?”

“But you’ve been with Sean lately. Hasn’t he been keeping you enough company?” There was a hint of jealousy in her voice but I ignored it.

“About Sean… I can’t work with him anymore.”

“Why not?” She frowned.

“You can’t tell anyone this but uh… He kissed me today. We’ve been hanging out a lot lately and I think he has developed some feelings for me.”

Phoebe looked at me warily, it was the kind of look that you give someone before smacking them right in the face. But then, she smiled.

“You know what? You’re right. I think you should quit your job.” Her smile was really huge now that it looked fake.

“Wait, Just now I thought you didn’t want me to quit.” Something was up with her.

“I changed my mind. You should.”

“What changed your mind?”

“Nothing! What you said made sense… about the whole Mr Wilson going MIA and stuff.”

“You see! Now you get my point. I’ve already written my letter and I’m handing it in tomorrow. At least that will get Mr Wilson’s attention. If he approves it then I guess that’ll settle everything. He doesn’t want me in his life anymore and I’ll stay out.”

“Oh Sophia, then you’ll have to look for a new job.” She hugged me.

“Don’t worry, I’ll find one.”

I hope…

———-

Sophia Parker

Phoebe and I began to search for a new job for me last night. We didn’t find anything suitable… yet, but it was just our first attempt. I know we would eventually find something.

On the other hand, today is Friday and I’m on my way to the office, about to quit my job. But first, there was something I needed to do. I thought about this thing alone before I went to bed last night and now I know what I have to do.

Sean is an amazing person and I made a huge mistake yesterday when I turned him down. I can see myself happy with him and he’s genuinely interested in me. The whole thing I had with Mr Wilson was a flop. He has moved on and it’s time for me to move on too.

I arrived at work and made my way to the elevator.

I will be handing my letter to the HR department on the 8th floor since Mr Wilson is not around for me to give him directly. Maybe they would notify him by email about my resignation.

But before then I went to the 4th floor. I knocked on the door to Sean’s office. When he answered I opened the door and walked in.

He was sitting down behind his desk but the moment he saw me, he stood up abruptly. He seemed surprised to see me… but then, why wouldn’t he be? After what happened yesterday, he probably wouldn’t have expected me to be back. At least, not so soon.

“Hi.” I said awkwardly.

“Sophia… I… I wasn’t expecting you today.”